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02:43 pm
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OMG!
OMG! untel today i hadn't been to the eye doctrer since 2005 and yes i need new glasses my new glasses will be hear in 7 to 10 bissness dayS
Current Mood:  ecstatic
Tags: glasses
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07:37 pm
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man am i ever fucked up
hey i know it's been a hell of a long time since i've updated this thing. but being watched all most 24/7 cause of being depressed and being on a new med and other shit dosen't leave much space for free time. fuck i hate being depressed i hate how it controls my whole life, and the thoughts it makes me have like killing myself. fuck i fucking want to kill myself right now and i'm always thinking about what the world would be like with out me, but if i tell my mom she'll put me on more fucking meds that i feel i DO NOT NEED. god i've been on meds since the day i was born, i don't rember a day in my life that i haven't been on some form of meds, and i fucking hate being on meds
Current Location: Saskatoon
Current Mood:  pissed off
Tags: depression, meds
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06:25 am
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what the hell is the big deal
Todday is my 19th and everyone makes big deal about 19 b-day, yes i underdstand that you become leagl to consume alcahol on your 19th , but why do people make such a big deal booze is not a new thing well at lest not for me it isn't. No i've never got pissed to the nines but i did get a bit of a hang over from the glass of wine i had at my granny's 75th and i was only 18 then i think by giving in to the presher of famliy members on my dad's half of my family scroued up my 19th. but what i would like to know is why people make a big deal out of truning 19 causeall that 's happening is you can drink and the fact that your a year older big flipen woopdy do
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06:06 am
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my summer/ school
my summer was ok. i got to see my causins on my mom's side who i hadn't seen in 4 years. i went to camp easter seal one last time. i just about lost my dad. (he's fine right now) he's sapost to be on oxagen 24/7 but he's desided that he only going to use the oxagen when he has doctors apponments and i'm scared as fucking hell that he's going to die.
school is really lonly as i have all most noone to hang out with but i'll live
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03:04 pm
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sad
hey every one just so you know i dont have intrnet at my mom's any more so the best way to reach me is to phone (306)- 373-6783
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05:29 pm
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book 7
hey all I'm pleased to say that I'm the owner of a voucher for DH and that I might be going to the party at McNally.
Current Mood: ecstatic
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07:36 pm
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report card time agin
i came to my mom's on thursday to spend the weekend and when my mom gets home i show her my report card and she freaks saying that 81.6 over all average isn't good enuf and that i need at lest an 85 i ask her why i need an 85 and her answer is because you do. i said because why she said because i say so. well fuck you! you should be happy with what ever marks i get because i'm at lest going to school. were as my brother dosen't go to school at all and sits on his ass all day in front of the computer playing games. for peat's sake mom send him to BJM, nutana or farm school. and to make things weres she yells at me for my lowiet mske being 70. oh and to top things off Micha cuple leves for kingstion on sunday wich pisses me off cause i won't get to see him before he leves.
Current Location: saskatoon ( at my mom's)
Current Mood: angry
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01:20 pm
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random rant
i'm happy becuse grad is less then 3 months away and i'll be done part one of grade 12, but i have to go back to cross next year, i can live with that tho. the thing that's going to be hard for me is losing Jen she the last of my five best friends who is still at cross, the other four of my best friends graduated last year. i'll have no one that i realy trust to talk to about stuff. (quacks and my mom DON"T count becuse they can't be trusted they say that thay don't tell any one, but what ever i say to them the other always knows exactal what was said)hopefuly i get into camp cuse if i do i might get to see Jen this summer if she gets on as a CIT.
Current Location: perdue ( at my granny's)
Current Mood:  worried
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08:00 pm
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limewire/nero
i love limewire becuse i can get the lazy vresions of all the HP books for free.i also love nero becuse it lets me burn the books on to cds. i have choosen to download the books as mp3 files so each book fits on 1 cd.were as if i download them as wma files it would take 5 cds per book.
Current Mood: grateful
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08:35 pm
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next school year
i've just come to the realise the fact that i'm going to lose most of the kids that i'v e been with sice grade 9. to be totaly honist i find haging out with the other alt ed. kids realy boring.
but on a happier note tonight i'm going out with Jen vail, nathan yaworski and mike. micah coupal was sapost to come but he was call in to work tonight at the last minite, but it will still be fun. i just hope that i get to see micah before he leaves for ontareo were he'll be for 4 months i'm planing on wrighting micah a few letters and i hope he wrights me back at lest once
Current Location: saskatoon ( at my mom's)
Current Mood: happy/sad
Current Music: hot 93
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02:37 pm
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goin' to perdue
perdue is the small town were my dad and granny live it is about 45 minites from saskatoon. in perdue there is two gas staions, a grocray store, a post office, and a school. i addmit there's not a whole hell of a lot to do in perdue, but it's my second favorate place .
i can't wait for deathly hallows to come out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: satisfied
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02:15 pm
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my plans for 2007 (in order of importance)
1) finish high school
2)learn to drive
3) go to my granny's 75th brithday party
4)go to camp ( i hope)
5) spend time with my dad
6)fined the man of my dreams
7) fined a job i like
Current Mood:  bored
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08:21 pm
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merry merry
merry christmas hear's the top 3 thingsm i'm tankful for this year
1) That ALL my friends are safe and sound and that i've seen most of them at lest once.
2) That most of my friends have sent me christmas greetings of some kind
3) that on the 28th of decmber my grandma's will be done her treatment forever
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03:16 am
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my mom's house
my mom's house is a mess and i'm sick and tried of cleaning up after my mom and brother every weekend i come home i end up cleaning the kinchen, the bathrooms and my brother's mess by the desktop. the only food up staers is the perasembled and frozen crap that they eat or fast food and any good food the helthy stuff sits and goes bad. the food i eat when i go out to my dad's is better for me than what i get at my mom's house the only time i dont have to clean my mom's house is when she has comepany over thank god christmas is coming and that my mom's brothe r and sister are coming out frm calgary i'll get a break frombeing the made
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09:44 am
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sad very sad
well I just found out that my grandma's cancer is now in her chest wall and that after she's done radeaion. she'll proboly have to have more sergary. this is exactly how it started with my anut who died because of cancer. My mom and brother are doing nothing about finding a new school for him to go to. all my brother dose is sleep all day and play on the computer all night . it piss me off cause i'm going to school and getting good marks, and i get no positve feed back about my report card, the only feed back i got from my mom about my report card was that 70 is not acceptable and that i have to get the 70 up to at lest an 80 if i want to graduate in the spring where as my brother gets treated like roalty if he's up by 8 at night.
Current Location: Saskatoon
Current Mood: sad/piss off
Current Music: lean on me
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08:49 pm
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so pissed off
hey all I'm pissed off because my bother is so depressed that my mom has pulled him out of school, he dosen't care about any thing and he's blaming me for every that's happening to him. I have found many exacto kifes in the bathroom so based on that I have good reseon to beleve he is a cutter.but my mom says the he isn't a cutter and that I'm the cutter. when I am so NOT a cutter.
Current Location: Saskatoon
Current Mood: angry
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06:17 am
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my brother
My brother is a total jerk why? you ask because I asked him vary vary nicely if he would let my mom take a bunch of pics of him and I together (for christmas presents) he said no and when asked why he said that he didn't want to be seen with his retarded family and that he had better stuff to do.
Current Mood: frustrated
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06:55 pm
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so scard
hey all i'd just thought i'd let you know that my grandma has cancer.the last i heared was that she might have bone cancer, and even tho she is having chemo every 3 weeks it's really hard for me to see her so sick. i hate to say it but because i've been worring about my grandma so much my grades aren't going to be as high as they where last year and i'm having trouble consintrating in school. i think what i really need is someone to talk to about all the crap invalved with this kind of thing.
Current Mood: scard/confused
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06:23 pm
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my dad/his house
even though my dad is on welfare and dosen't have much money to do stuff with i still enjoy spending time with him. i love going out to his house because it means almost no rules, chors are opshional ( if i do chors i get paid to do them)and i get the computer when i want it.the 2 main rules are that i have tell him were i'm going and that i have to be back for meals. and othe rthen that i can do what i want. i don't get to go out to my dad's veary often so when i do i take full advntage of the freedom i get.
Current Mood: relaxed
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07:28 pm
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staff
there are veary few staff at cross who I dislike the few that I do dislike I have good reasion for dislikeing them swails for one yelled at me today for takeing my cumputer to class saying that I take up to space in the hallway when I have my computer with me. i also dislike cross's new princeable as he gave me heck for haveing my discman on at lunch saying that it was aganest school rules to have discmens on school propordy which is bull because the rule states that we are not aloud have them in class.
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